Foreward: I believe the soul survives the death (“transition”) of the body. Years before my Mother passed away, I told her that I believed the departed soul can return to communicate with loved ones. She said, “Really?” I said, “Yes, and if you want to come and visit with me, I would welcome you with open arms.” After my Mother passed away, May 23, 2004, I decided to record any dream that I had of her. The following journal entries are a result of that decision. I hope this study in the After-Life helps other investigations into the Journey of the Soul

Oct. 17, 1998 (Saturday)
I was driving my mom (actually, I was riding her on a bike) up a steep hill. The street we were on had a steady incline, but I managed to use the 10-speed bike (by standing and pedaling) in such a way that I made it to the top without stopping. When we got to the top there was a level area. From there we would be able to see everything below. [I had the impression upon awakening that my mom would soon be taken “to heaven.”]
Then I woke up!
I was thinking that it would be nice to be a guide for my mom in the “after-life.”

May 28, 2004
Begin Dream Coverage – expecting “wisdom” from Mom-in-Spirit.

May 29, 2004
Dream – I was on my way to see a lady friend of my mother’s called OKSANA. She was living in this apartment building. I ran into her grand-daughter just getting out of her car, and she told me she didn’t know if her grandmother was home. We started walking to the apartment to see if she was home. (I woke up.) [Upon awakening, I knew OKSANA to be a form of OSanna, Hosanna, from Matthew 21:9, which means “Lord, Save us we pray” or “Salvation.”]

June 5, 2004 (13 days after Olga’s Transition) – Saturday
Faintly saw a “phantasmal” shape of my “dearly beloved” mother, who seemed to be absorbed in eating a bowl of salad in front of her. She shoved 3 large pieces of lettuce into her mouth at once and I was trying to tell her not to chew too much at once.
Her “form” seemed to be from her latter days (in her 90’s). There was nothing else that I remember about this first dream of my mother “on the other side.” [Possible meaning – she’s busy absorbing the “green” or new things she is learning in the other world.]

June 11, 2004 (19 days after Olga’s Transition) - Friday
Dream of my dearly beloved Mother (May she rest in Peace).
We had a cat and it had a litter of 6 white kittens. The six kittens were kind of getting scattered and lost, and I was trying to gather them together in one place. My mom was there and she was wanting to breast-feed the kittens, but I told her that she no longer had any milk. She looked disappointed when I told her that. She looked like she was in her late 70’s.
[Interpretation – with Cathy Pettigrew’s help: 6 kittens means she had 6 children, including the one she lost in the womb – and she will succor her children, even if there’s no physical milk left.]

October 16, 2004 (Saturday, early 3-4 AM)
Dream of my “Transfigured” Mom –
Ben Shevchenko (minister at Mom’s funeral), and I were doing an interview-type discussion about the life of my mom and his wife Zina was video—ing our discussing. Then I noticed that Zina had stopped the video camera, and I asked her why she wasn’t filming the documentary on the Life of my Mother.
All of a sudden – in a flash of illumination – I was in another place, which looked somewhat like the family room in my Antioch house, and I felt or sensed the “etheric” presence of my mother. And it seemed that within that split-second illumination I had “seen” a glimpse of my “transfigured” mom as she was in the physical form in her late 50’s/early 60’s. It was at that moment when I sensed her presence and glimpsed her “etheric” form that I cried out, “Oh, my God!”
And I woke up!
I had definitely seen my mom in Spirit!
[Note: this occurred 21 weeks – 147 days – after Mom’s passing.]

November 27, 2004 (Saturday about 2-4AM)
This was the first dream-vision of my dearly “departed” mother in which she not only was smiling, but she even said a few words when she saw me – and I saw her – in a simultaneous moment of recognition. My mom was dressed in her dark violet suit that she wore a lot in her early 50’s or 60’s. She looked very pretty and her face shone with an ethereal light. I don’t recall the words she said, but they sounded very sweet. I was hoping to make the moment last longer, but I was only given a momentary glimpse of my mom this time.
[27 weeks have passed, or 189 days.]

December 11, 2004 (Saturday at 5 AM)
This was a truly incredible dream-vision of my mother. She was so lively and full of song. When I saw her come into the room (I thought it was in my house), I noticed how real she looked. I called my brother Adolf (it must have been in his house), and when he saw her he dismissed the apparition as unreal, saying she was gone. However, just then my dad appeared and began to sing “God is Love” (Russian), and other people arrived and joined in the singing. Some lady said, “She must be a god” (referring to my mother), and another person corrected her, saying, “That’s a woman.” The first lady incredulously replied, “Really?” Then the singing continued.
Then I woke up and recalled my mother singing along in German, “Gott ist Die Liebe.” The song rang in my head for hours afterwards. (Afterwards, I recalled someone saying my mom had reddish eyes.)
[29 weeks have passed, 203 days.]

January 5, 2005 (Wed. Mittwoch-Midweek, 3-4AM)
Dream of my dearly departed mother.
I was sitting on a sofa with my mom, and we were looking at photos in a photograph album. Some of the pictures I particularly remembered were ones of my niece, Lydia, my Mom’s first grandchild.
We were talking about the pictures, but I can’t recall what we were saying. My mom seemed to be in her early 70’s.
That part that stood out in my mind when I woke up was a “photo-diorama” that depicted a scene of twins floating (one above the other) in space – waiting to be born.
I thought that perhaps the “picture” foreshadowed rebirth or reincarnation of my mother’s soul in the form of twins (or Gemini?).
Come to think of it, she passed away on May 23rd – so that would be Gemini. Or it could be that her etheric and soul bodies are still attached, and she is capable of communicating with earth beings.

March 14, 2005 (Monday at 4-5AM)
Dream of “a glimpse” of seeing my mother and saying at the same time. “Mother!” She was probably in her late 40’s or early 50’s, and she looked at me but didn’t say anything. It was a very short dream.

March 20, 2005 (Sunday at 9:53PM) as I was drifting off to sleep.
I saw and heard my mother as she was in the flesh, again in her late 40’s/early 50’s. She said some things (which I can’t recall), but I remember it being instructive. I was just about to put my hands on her face (to give her a kiss? – or to embrace her), when I saw that the “specter” had disappeared and there was nothing there. I heard myself say “Mother” as I saw her face vanish.
[Does the principle—Don’t touch me, for I have not ascended to my father—apply here?]
Later, I realized she appeared on Palm Sunday. Vernal Equinox.

May 18, 2005 (at 3-6AM in Sunny Isles, Miami, Florida)
Dream of my mother. She was in her early 60’s, looking full of wisdom and grace.
She was explaining to me in excited words how she had freed herself from the physical body and was able to rise to the “other side.” She said that as she was “dying” (i.e. making the transition), she heard all the words we were saying and how we wanted her to stay. But she knew her time had come and it was her moment to leave the physical and ascend to the spirit. I listened intently to her words of explanation.
When I awoke, I realized this was the first dream of my mother in which she was absolutely natural, and her words and actions were exactly as they were during her years on earth. “A perfect reflection!”
[Note: 53 days after Easter; 5 days before 1st anniversary on May 23rd. Thought: Location of “Sunny Isles” is an apt name for the “Astral Plane.”]

January 7, 2006 (Saturday)
Dream-vision of my beloved Mother Olga, who looked like she was in her late 50’s/early 60’s. She was living in a forest or at the edge of a forest (I thought of Великий Лес – Great Forest, where my Uncle Anton lived). She seemed to be living there with my father, who is still alive (or does he travel there astrally?).
The main impression was her words she spoke to me: “I have a visitor who speaks words into my ears.” I understood her to mean an invisible (spiritual) visitor who teaches her. And it seems she meant she has one just like I do – who comes and informs with wisdom and knowledge.

January 23, 2006 (Monday)
I had a dream of my mother and father together, as if they were reunited again. They were telling me that they had tickets to go to Ukraine. After going back to Ukraine, their next destination was to Argentina, South America. I understood that going back to Ukraine meant going back to where they came from in this life – but I couldn’t understand why they would have tickets to go to Argentina – unless that is their next life-time.

February 3, 2006 (Friday)
This was the first time that I dreamed of Uncle Anton Wigowsky since he passed away into “another world” (иной мир) – in November 2005. I saw Uncle Anton sitting on what appeared to be a couch/divan with an unfamiliar being/person. Anton looked like a plain Russian peasant with a Ukrainian hat, and he hadn’t shaved for several days. He handed me a picture. When I looked at the picture, it was of my mom when she was a Maiden (Дева). I looked at the picture and instantly doubled over in emotional joy at seeing how beautiful my Mother looked when she was a Maiden.
[Note: I need to get a copy of my mom’s picture as a maiden from my brother Adolf. I believe the picture was my mom’s way of telling me she had entered the Eternal City, New Jerusalem, where time shall be no more.
I also recalled my Mother waking up one morning back in 1957--I was 12--and she tearfully related her Dream-Vison of the New Jerusalem to the family. I knew from that day forward that it was humanly possible to see the Holy City while still alive in the mortal body. I made it my Quest in the present life to make that Vision a reality.]

July 12, 2006 (Wednesday)
Dream of my mother as she was in her 60’s. She seemed to be very busy at a new job – I had wondered the day before what she was doing now in the astral world – she was taking dried clothes and sorting them, putting shirts and other clothes into three piles.
[Note: the meaning seems to be about the differentiation of astral, etheric, and atmic levels.] I did not bother her and she did not turn around to talk to me. She was very busy!
[Note: Susie said the dream most probably was about grandma (“Баба”) packing a bag for her travels.]

July 18, 2006 (Tuesday)
Dream of my mother, which involved her visiting family members (Wigowsky’s), including my brother Stan’s family. It seemed as if she were on vacation and was able to travel on the earth plane.
[Note: the previous dream was about her packing a travel bag.]

August 11, 2006 (Friday)
Dream at Lake Sisk-i-you, California near Mt. Shasta (“where heaven meets earth”).
My mom came to me and placed her hands on my head near the cheeks (as she did many times before) and turned my head to kiss me. She kissed me on the lips, saying “kouss” (German for kiss).
[Note: the previous night around a campfire I spoke in German with a Swiss woman (in her 70’s) named Johanna (“Hanny”). I was amazed to have the kiss delivered to me at “Lake Sisk (anagram of kiss) –i—you. Sisk-I-You is also rephrased “I Kiss You.”]

October 2, 2006 (Monday morn at 4AM)
I had a dream-vision of my mom. First, I was with the evangelist, Billy Graham, and I was asking him about his views on war and Christ’s teachings on war. Then I was with a friend named John Dumanovsky (думать=to think), and I saw my mom. I told John my Mom was “here.” I even called her, saying, “Mom, Mom.” She was in her forty-age-range. John didn’t believe she was there, and he waved his hands out to touch her and see if anything was material in front of us. He just waved through thin air. Then all that was left was a picture of my Mom. Afterwards, I saw Billy Graham again; this time he was playing with and teaching kids. Meanwhile, my wife Elsa was getting a ravioli-type dish cooked for us, and I was going to invite my brother Adolf to come over to see the evangelist (Evangel=Gospel). Then I awoke.

January 31 (Wednesday), 2007
There were lots of times when my Mother told us about her dream-vision of her two sons (Michael and Reinhold) who had died in their childhood. It was a dream where they came to comfort her and tell her that they were whole again and in a better place. This was my first dream in which my two brothers -- whom I had known only for a short time when I was a small child and I did not remember them -- came to teach me something about the after-life: In the dream that I had, there were two boys who had come to play with me, and they were going to show me something. "Do you want to see some penguins?" they asked. "Yes," I answered. They took me to a place where the black and white colored penguins were. I saw them. Then the boys took me past the duality of black&white to a land of eternal light (where there was no night).
When I woke up I realized the two boys were my "departed" brothers Michael and Reinhold, and they had shown me the heavenly land of light where they resided. Afterwards, I thought that perhaps my mother had sent them to "play" with me.

February 8 (Thursday), 2007 at about 4-5 AM -- A Dream-Vision
I was in a place (like a room) where my father lay dying. All of a sudden I saw Tyotya (Auntie) Vera (Ilyin) and I said, "Tyotya Vera." Then my Mom appeared, and several other ladies who had passed on, like Milya Britchok and about four others. Then my Mom said, "Iwan, let's start a service. Say a prayer." My father sat up in his death-bed and started the parting service with his usual long-winded and showy prayer.
When I woke up I realized a "band of angels" had come to take my father home. The song -- "A band of angels coming after me, coming for to carry me home" -- sang in my head.

March 18, 2007 (Sunday) at the Lincoln City, Oregon beach house.
She was "puttering around," as if to say that she's still around and mindful of what we're doing (on the Earth plane). She was in her mid-60's.

May 12, 2007 (Saturday) at John & Monica Dumanovsky's house, the day before Mother's Day.
Dream-vision, in which my dad was relating to me news that my dearly-departed Mother had returned from a Journey to a "distant country." I went with him to see her in a house (not sure whose house it was). She was standing and waiting for me, and I came up to her (late 40's image) and said, "Mother." And then I wanted to play the accordion and sing a song for her. ("Куда Ты едишь моя молютка, Я еду к маме на небесах...")[Where are you going my dear little one? I'm going to mother in the heavens...]
I awoke and remembered that Pana Brachunoff promised (several days ago) to get the song for me that my mother used to sing to us.

August 10, 2007 (4:10 AM). I saw Gabriel Avramenko (pastor of Geary Street Church in San Francisco in the 1950's). He asked a group sitting in a small restaurant lounge area what they thought about communicating with "the dead." I stood up and started talking about dreams (communications) of my Mom, and I choked-up with tears when I said, "My Mother inspired me to write a book." I was telling a young man that the inspiration comes through an etheric nerve connection to the mind. Then I asked the young man, "Do you know what the mind really is, and what makes it work?" [When I woke up, I recollected the sequence and magnitude and significance of the dream. At first I thought my Mother was inspiring me to write another book, but then I recalled that it was after her passing in May 23, 2004, that I sought out Maestro D'Aura, who inspired me to write the book
God in Three Persons: A Spiritual Odyssey.
My mother, in other words, was the initial impetus to search out the Spirit-World.

[Note: I can't recall when or where, but I have a distinct impression that my mother has NOW reincarnated -- born into another body (sometime between August and October, 2007) as a little girl again.]
January 11, 2008 (3-4AM). [1/11 - A New Beginning] Verification of my impression:
Dream-Vision in which I saw my Mother again. I was facing her (she was in her 40's or 50's), and then I put my hands around her and picked her up. As I picked her up, she changed into a little girl -- right before my eyes! She was very light, and I lifted her up over my head and I looked into her baby-face. She was a beautiful baby!